What do you do when your future begins to slip away from you inch by inch untill it's out your hands and then poof! it's gone?
I have always wanted to be a doctor. I do not want anything else, I never have wanted anything else. Now I am faced with the possibility that it may be impossible for me.
I have never been busier in my entire life than I have been this semester...and as a consequence, my grades have been low in chemistry. Doesn't seem like much does it? But medical schools won't accept you if have below a 3.4 GPA. Not a problem, that's exactly what I have right now. But they don't usually even interview you if you have any grades lower than a B-. Period. That's it. The end. You lose: do NOT pass go, do NOT collect $200. They just don't want you. I have a B- in chemistry right now and I have the final comming up ahead of me.
Here is the problem; no one ever does well on Dr. Shive's final. People go into it with As and come out with Bs. People pray for sixties and seventies, because then their grade will only be lowered by two letters instead of three. How do you survive such a final you ask? Well, you go into it with an A or a B+ and come out with a B or a B-, then you make up for it later on in other courses. But I have a B-, and I can't aford to go into it with a B- and come out with a C or a C-....Not if I want to be a doctor.
I am faced with a situaiton where there is a possibility that my dreams may be decided by one test...except that the test is impossible. I am one of the calmest, most centered people I know...but if I had an inch less of reserve in me, then i think that i would collapse in a paniced hysteria. As it is, I go forward prepared to face worst and deal with the consequences afterward.